I don't mind for a number of reasons:
1. In the last vote, my intersection partner and I got the same number of votes and it wasn't such a bad quantity, just not enough to save us that time. This means that I don't have to kick myself too hard for letting the side down. Le phew!
Yeah, yeah, yeah! Mild narcissism from me plus that hark back to teams and partners being picked in games lessons - thou shalt not let down the side.
2. By hook or by crook, we made the top 50, which isn't too shabby considering that there were more than 300 of us at the starting line (if I'm wrong about this, pray don't disillusion me too hard! We were legion at the beginning!).
3. Losing the poll does not necessarily mean that I am not Destined For Greatness. I mean, I know I'm not anyway, before anybody reaches for the Big Blue Book of Intervention Strategies. Perhaps if I had rocked the polls I might take a different view, but as it is, I know it's just a game and I'm passing up the sour grapes for my preferred green olives with pimento. Or anchovy. Or lemon and garlic. Or... I may be peckish and the thought got away from me.
4. Oh, and I was described as a 'cult favourite'. That's good enough for me. I'm easy!
I have been competing since Season 3 and it is now Season 8. The last few seasons, to tell the truth, I have sworn I wasn't going to participate and have ended up doing so anyway. Why? Because I know I would have the nagging feeling that something was missing if I didn't. Why not? Confidence reasons, mostly. Not unconnected to these are some of the dramas that have accompanied the seasons; awful people get under my skin and up my nose too easily. Fortunately it's been a minority of contestants who have been awful, although they cause ripples, including making me seriously side-eye some other people. Generally, I have to remind myself that not doing something fun just because of a few 'mean kids' is stupid and a lesson I thought I learned long ago. There is also the ongoing lesson to quit focussing on the negative side/possibilities of things.
I know anyway that I enjoy writing, should relearn to enjoy being out of my comfort zone (intersections, anybody? I'm heinously shy, even from behind the safety of the 'net.) and my original aim, way back in the mists of Season 3, was to 'meet' new people,which even I have managed to do.